Cancer is responsible for having ruined many days for Mary in the last few weeks, and it chalked up another one today. Back at Mayo Clinic in Minnesota for meetings with several doctors, Mary and Bervin listened to honest reports about her prognosis and heard again that a “best case scenario” is to buy some time with chemotherapy. Today that sounded like a high price, and worst of all, even after paying it, gains weren’t guaranteed.
Tonight Mary texted me the following:
“Today was a rough day, but with the Lord’s help, we’re through it. Luke showed up and was wonderful, asking good questions and pushing for answers, options, etc. The chemo docs were experts and were very kind, as everyone up here is. What I heard is that chemo, at best, will only postpone the inevitable, and though we’ve known that since we got the diagnosis, it’s difficult to hear it verbalized.”
Cancer makes everything difficult. When it touches an individual, a family, and a circle of friends, the touch is one of pain, both physical and emotional. So today Mary has been doing the excruciating work of weighing her options. She wrote:
“Though the chemo docs said I shouldn’t give up, I kept thinking about Elizabeth Elliott’s quote: ‘In acceptance there is peace.’ I want to be totally on board with and at peace with God’s plan and timing. I think I am, and then find myself getting caught up with all the earthly excitement of babies and weddings, and I find myself longing for more earth-time, not longing for heaven like I should be. I’m ashamed to admit it!”
There is no shame in an admission of honest feelings, and God is pleased that Mary has always embraced life with joy and gladness. In Ecclesiastes he teaches there’s a right time for everything, and that long list includes a time to cry, a time to lament, a time to hold on, and a time to let go. It also says there’s a time to make war and a time to make peace. Today Mary has been asking herself, what time is it for me?
As she works to shape her answer to that question, she knows where to go for advice. She wrote, “God will help me to get a right perspective. It’s been a challenging day, but tomorrow will be better!”
Cancer makes every day challenging, but even while feeling vulnerable and without too many options, Mary has the one option that trumps all others: a God she can trust with the rest of her life.
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you.” (Isaiah 43:2)
Mary’s Prayer Requests
- Praise that chemo can be done at the Chicago hospital near their home
- Praise for Luke’s steady, knowledgeable presence on this difficult day
- Pray for unfettered trust in whatever God tells her to do
- Pray for the peace of God that passes all understanding