Is it dead?

As we move through the 24 hours of every day, our priorities become fixed on the demands of whatever shouts the loudest. Although we have our pre-planned agendas, the squeakiest wheel usually gets its oil, and there isn’t a day without abundant squeaks.

Last week while walking Jack, I marveled at the kiwi green dominating the neighborhood. Gardens were shouting, “It’s spring, and I’ve come back to life!” Yards were in that magical window of lush beauty when greenery is sturdy and stands tall.

However, there was one plant Jack and I passed daily that was dead, a cluster of lifeless sticks. I wondered why the gardener hadn’t dug it out. Today, though, after a week of warm weather and lots of rain, it had suddenly come to life, putting on the brilliant green of spring. It hadn’t been dead after all.

Most of us travel through dry, lifeless periods with God when we pray but feel the relationship has died. Answers don’t come, and we have the sense he’s turned his back on us. Well-meaning friends say, “Don’t worry. He hasn’t turned away.” But we can’t shake that feeling.

The scriptural “Doubting Thomas” had heard the rumor that Jesus, who was dead, had come back to life.  But he couldn’t have a relationship with someone he thought was lifeless until the two of them talked face-to-face.

Many of us feel that same way. We’re jealous of the disciples who got to hear Jesus teach in a human voice. Even in the Old Testament, God’s voice factored into many of his relationships. Adam and Eve got to converse with him daily and apparently so did Noah, Moses, Job, Abraham and others. Unable to hear his voice, we sometimes think we’re on audio-blackout from God.

What we have to remember is that not hearing him doesn’t mean we’re without his words. We have our Bibles, complete with multiple versions and scholarly commentaries. (I can see 29 copies of God’s Word right now, from where I’m sitting.)

None of us are in a black-out.

We may come to dry places in our spiritual lives, but it helps to know Jesus did, too. He was in an arid Middle Eastern desert for over a month, assaulted by evil the entire time, possibly feeling an audio black-out from his Father. So what did he do? He opened his ears to hear God through Scripture, then made sure the devil heard it, too.

Two other times, once in a garden and once on a cross, he prayed, but God didn’t respond. The spiritual parching of those moments nearly overwhelmed him.

It’s important to notice, however, those dry spells didn’t last. They had a beginning and an end, which is still true today. If we can’t hear God in the moment, we should believe we soon will.

The dead plant in my neighborhood seemed hopeless, but when God ended its dry spell, life burst forth.

“For a brief moment I abandoned you, but with deep compassion I will bring you back…” says the Lord your Redeemer. (Isaiah 54:7,8)

 

The Rat Race

When Nate came out of law school in 1972, he was hired by the trust department of American National Bank in Chicago’s Loop. I was glad to be moving back to the Chicago area, and he was thankful to be starting his career in a big city.

I remember the day we bought his first briefcase, a plain black leather model with expandable pockets and niches for pens.  We waited while the shopkeeper embossed Nate’s initials near the handle, and from there we went and picked out a new suit.

After he began working, I loved walking from our second-floor apartment to meet him at the train each evening. Picking him out from a sea of suit-clad, briefcase-carrying commuters never failed to make my heart flutter. “Oh, there’s mine!”

He loved going to work and made friendships during those first years that were still current when he died 37 years later. But as the decades passed, Nate began to label his work routine a “rat race.” Career goals, once met, had been withdrawn, and his enthusiasm had waned.

Work was a means to an end, and he lived to come home. The luster had gone from boarding the commuter train and parading across the Loop with others running the same race. Yet he never wavered in his commitment to go. Even after the tumultuous collapse of his real estate company, he didn’t stay home even one day but rented a single-room office downtown, arranged for a phone, packed his briefcase and went to work.

When we moved to Michigan, his commute time doubled. But ever an advocate of riding trains, he daily boarded the South Shore Line for a journey from Michigan to the Loop. Amazingly, he didn’t mind, despite low energy and serious back pain. He took the 6:20 AM train to work the day we received his cancer diagnosis, and the next morning, against all logic, he climbed on the train again.

Jesus never experienced the pressure of a fast-paced commute with masses of people, but he definitely knew stress. His response was to decompress with the Father, separating himself from others and pulling close to his Sustainer. Amazingly, that same stress-reducer is available to us today with the identical benefit. Jesus successfully dealt with the burdens of his life by sharing them with God, and we can do the same. The invitation still stands. If we choose to go-it-alone, we step away from our most valuable resource.

Today I traced Nate’s commuter footsteps back into the rat race, riding the South Shore train to the Loop. Realizing the enormity of his commitment to continue commuting and working, I was emotionally moved while bumping along the rails.

What I did today took effort (finding the schedule, watching the clock, driving 19 miles to the station, waiting for a parking spot, hassling with the ticket machine), but he did this daily. I was making the journey for recreational reasons, but he did it to meet the demands of a pressure-cooker job.

My admiration for Nate’s willingness to run the rat race for his family knows no bounds. And it’s nice to know he has finally decompressed 100%.

“Jesus went out to a mountainside to pray, and spent the night praying to God.” (Luke 6:12)

The Club

Last year was a year of firsts for me, most of them calendar holidays without Nate. Those firsts ended as we passed the one year anniversary of his death in November of 2010. But other firsts have occurred, and tonight was one of them.

Bob and Linda Miller next door invited me to an evening with The Economics Club of Southwest Michigan. This is a members-only organization that meets to hear well-known speakers half-a-dozen times each year. In the club’s 68 years, it has featured:

  • Ted Koppel
  • Margaret Thatcher
  • Elizabeth Dole
  • Cal Ripkin
  • President Bush 1
  • President Bush 2
  • Mary Tyler Moore
  • Barbara Walters
  • Sarah Palin
  • John Glenn
  • Tony Blair
  • Colin Powell
  • Julie Andrews
  • Peyton Manning
  • Gerald Ford
  • Barbara Bush
  • Laura Bush
  • Garrison Keillor
  • Bob Woodward
  • Bill Clinton
  • Bob Newhart
  • Tom Brokaw
  • Condoleezza Rice

Somebody in The Economic Club must have clout in order to garner such an impressive roster of guests, and there are hundreds more.

As we arrived tonight, there was a police presence, and Bob mentioned that some of the speakers have had security right on stage with them. Tonight we were treated to an evening with Gordon Brown, former Prime Minister of England.

As I watched this celebrity answer questions, I wondered about the man behind the deep voice and easy banter. Yes, he’d been a prime minister with global political power, but who was he really, beneath the black suit and silk tie?

When I got home I “googled” him. Although no one mentioned it tonight, today was the one year anniversary of his stepping down from his powerful position as PM. Surely that was on his mind.

I also learned he was married for the first time at 49 and that his first child, a daughter named Jennifer, died ten days after she was born, of a brain hemorrhage. Although two boys quickly followed, one was diagnosed with cystic fibrosis while still a pre-schooler.

Learning of Gordon Brown’s recent tumultuous decade made me long to sit across a small table from him and get beneath his politics to hear his heart. I also wondered how many other Economics Club speakers had dealt with severe disappointment, failure and sadness. Probably all of them.

Life is messy, and our character is strengthened and then proven true through adversity. Does that mean our character is weak without it?

The Bible tells us to “rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character.” * And in referring to Moses, Scripture says, “The Lord your God led you through the wilderness for these forty years, humbling you and testing you to prove your character.” **

No matter where we stand on the character continuum, there’s always room for improvement. God is interested in seeing that happen and arranges multiple opportunities for us. Thankfully, his character is stable at the highest level. It never changes and never needs improvement.

Last week a previous Economic Club speaker gave us a peek into his character in an interview with TIME magazine. George Bush #1 was asked what advice he gave his son, George Bush #2, after he left the White House. #1 told #2, “Don’t forget it’s your job to take out the garbage now.”

“God desired to show the unchangeable character of his purpose… We have this as a sure and steadfast anchor of the soul.” (Hebrews 6:17,19)

 

*Romans 5:3,4     **Deuteronomy 8:2