Good Hope

In my quest to fly home from England yesterday, it was all bad news. Traveling on a Buddy Pass given to me by Nelson’s friend Kevin, I’d flown to England on a flawless connection. Kevin had assured me I’d get on, and I had.

When Hans and I pulled up to the Manchester airport early Tuesday, we hugged our goodbyes, and I walked into the airport with confidence. There had been 20 open seats on my flight, one of two daily Delta departures for the States. The queue was long, and as I stood with literally hundreds who were ticketed for the same plane, my nerves came awake.

The friendly agent saw my Buddy Pass status and said, “Oooo, ma’m. It doesn’t look good for you today. The flight is overbooked, and you’re at the bottom of the standby list. We won’t check your bag, because more than likely you won’t fly today.”

I’d stayed up till 1:15 am packing and had disrupted Hans’ work day needing a lift to the airport. To call an hour after he’d dropped me with a request that he return was unacceptable. And would it be any better tomorrow?

“Take your bags and find a place to wait,” the agent said. “Come back in an hour, and we’ll let you know.”

“Is there any hope?” I said.

“It’s always best to hope,” he said.

I wheeled my bags across the airport in search of an empty chair and plopped down next to a young woman who had an even bigger luggage pile than I did. The tags on her suitcases matched mine, iridescent green with block letters: DELTA STANDBY TAG. We were both after the same empty seat on the same crowded flight. With a friendly smile she said, “None of us could have predicted British Airways would go on strike this morning…”

So that was where the seats had gone. Feeling powerless, I sat and stared at the passing masses, each one anxious to fly away to someplace. I prayed for those walking by and also reminded God he’d promised to go ahead of me and prepare my way, too.

An hour later, I took my bags back to the counter, “Mr. Hope” was gone, but the woman in his place had surprising news. “Put your suitcase on the scale. You’re listed on the flight.” I didn’t even ask.

As I rushed through the airport to find my gate, loudspeakers were urging passengers to heed “the final call” for boarding. My last stop was to receive a seat assignment, worrying me I could still be plucked from the passenger list. But the agent handed me my boarding pass with a smile. “Here’s your seat now, love.”

I didn’t look at it but lined up behind the last boarders, heeding earlier counsel: “It’s always best to hope.”

With six minutes until push-back, the staff was urging people to find their places quickly. The stewardess at the door glanced at my boarding pass and said, “Oh. You’re right here.”

First row.   First seat.   First class!

Mine was the last empty seat on the plane, and as I sat down, anxiety melted. The cross-Atlantic flight was the most pampered ride of a lifetime with a bed-sized pillow, a down blanket, gourmet meals chosen from a menu, my own TV and a snap-shut travel bag filled with goodies. The other woman had made it on, too, neither of us knowing how it had happened. I have a hunch, though.

Kevin’s email yesterday (giving me the Buddy Pass data) had ended with this line: “We’ll be praying for you to get on, and to get a seat in first class.”

When there had been no way, God had made a way, proving the ticket agent was right: it’s always best to hope.

”Many that are first shall be last; and the last shall be first.” (Matthew 19:30)

Times Two

Today it was time for a tearful goodbye. We all knew it was coming, but that didn’t make the moment easier. I  think the reason older people focus so much on heaven is that they’re just tired of saying goodbye. Once we get to paradise, separations will be only a dim memory.

Last night we brainstormed for a way I might stay longer. After all, it took a week to get over jet lag and climb the grandma learning curve on everything from how the British toilets flush to how the washing machine works. Staying a few more days could only be delicious “grannie-gravy.”

 

I’ve gotten used to living with little children again, and I know my withdrawal from them will be of greater stress than dealing with a second round of jet lag. Nicholas has his own special presence and is at one of my favorite ages. Being a one year old with plump, kissable cheeks and the optimism of discovery during every minute of every day is completely captivating. Interacting with him has been rich entertainment as he’s thrown himself into daily life with glee. His sweet personality and big brown eyes will be front-and-center in my mind for many days to come.

And our newborn twins, already turning into “regular babies,” have proved to be the proverbial double blessing, despite their roller coaster responses to our scheduling efforts. There were evidences of their presence in every corner of every room that made it seem like we were seeing double. The work load of one infant is doubled by two, and equipment-doubles abound as well. For grandmas, this is like playing dolls on steroids. To see and think in pairs is twice the fun.

 

When I get sad about having had to go, I do the only positive thing I know to do: count my blessings. And when I come to “new birth” on my mental list, I’m thankful to be able to add, “Times two!”

The whole truth of the matter, though, is that my blessings add up to two million times two. And I’d need longer than a cross-Atlantic flight-time to be able to number them all.

“The Almighty… blesses you with blessings of the heavens above, blessings of the deep that lies below, blessings of the breast and womb.” (Genesis 49:25)

 

As time goes by…

Is it possible I’ve been in England at Hans and Katy’s house for 12 days already? That’s what the calendar says, but none of us believe it. Although we haven’t done much running around and have lived our days at home base, the hours have flown by, and it’s nearly time for me to climb back on a plane and head home.

 

While Hans has been at work, Katy and I have been consumed with the daily tending of their young flock. Nicholas cut another tooth this week, and we’ve celebrated Katy’s father’s birthday with a multi-course feast. Hans has explained his plan for their large vegetable garden and pointed out the herbs he’s already growing. We’ve pushed the triple stroller uphill and hiked along sheep pastures. I’ve marveled at watching Hans make a cream sauce that went over asparagus, which went over salmon. But mostly we’ve all participated in parenting and grandparenting, and that’s what I’ll miss most when it comes time to leave.

The last time I saw Nicholas was during the weeks of Nate’s illness and death. He was only ten months old, and when I saw him this time, he had no recollection of our relationship. Nearly seven months had gone by, during which he’d changed dramatically. How much more time will slip past us all before we can be together again? I try not to think about it. And of course the changes in Nicholas between now and then will be nothing compared with the changes in the twins.

Nate used to tap on his watch face with his index finger and say, “Nobody beats this guy.”

As a grandma, I’ve been labeling “distance” as my enemy, when in reality the enemy has been “time”. Its relentless march never slows, not for a second. Katy, Hans and I have had lengthy conversations this week during our evenings together, recently chatting about the passing of time. We’ve looked back and seen how we wasted it as youths and only appreciated time’s value when we seemed to have very little of it. I see these two young parents, fresh and strong in their mid-twenties, as having most of their lives ahead of them, while I view my life as waning. In truth, none of that may be accurate, since we can’t predict our futures.

When Hans and Katy called last year to announce a new baby would be coming this spring, I thought Nate and I would be traveling together to meet him or her (him and her, as it turned out). But time ran out sooner than we thought it would. This harsh reality, that time ends in different lives for different reasons, hovers over all of us.

Scripture puts the whole thing into perspective, describing our lives as a morning mist. In other places we’re likened to early dew that disappears, chaff swirling from a threshing floor or smoke escaping through a window. God is telling us that earthly life is fleeting and brief, over before we know it. Compared to eternity, it doesn’t matter much. When we ponder that broad truth, the ongoing mini-crises in our lives fall into proper perspective, and we become free to stop worrying, even about when we’ll next visit the children and grandchildren we love.  

”You do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes.” (James 4:14)