When Chaos Comes

Mickey MouseA week ago while I  answered emails, baby Emerald jabbered happily behind me on the floor, playing with an old Mickey Mouse pop-up toy. All of a sudden there was a noisy crash much like breaking glass, followed by Emerald’s loud wail.

I spun around just in time to see hundreds of marbles scatter all over her and the floor, their glass container lying next to her. Marbles were skittering wall-to-wall and into two adjacent rooms, bouncing off baseboards and heating vents.

Not high enoughGrabbing Emerald to soothe her panic, I figured her reach had grown longer than I’d estimated, and she’d pulled the heavy jar off the shelf where it had been doubling as a bookend.

After putting her safely in her walker, I crawled around on hands and knees, scooping marbles back into the jar, finding some of them 20 feet away. I wanted to get every single one, since 9 month old babies who put everything into their mouths aren’t compatible with marbles.

Even after my diligent search that day, though, I’m still finding strays in distant corners, under bookshelves, behind table legs, and under upholstered chairs. Today I stepped on one (barefooted) in a closet.

ChaosAn explosion of chaos, whether it’s marbles or just a chaotic life event, usually includes a major clean-up effort. And often the ones mopping up aren’t the ones who made the mess. For example, Emerald wasn’t capable of picking up the marbles (of course), so I needed to do it. That minor mishap, though, was nothing compared to some of the turmoil life brings, along with the complicated aftermath.

But sometimes those of us who think we’re innocent in a messy situation, really aren’t. Did we neglect the preventive measures we should have put in place to make a disaster less likely? Could we have been more sensitive to a need behind a deed, helping someone ahead of time?

It takes two to tango and usually takes more than one to cause a catastrophe. If we uncap our halo polish insisting we’re without fault, we probably aren’t. In the case of our flying marbles, I should have been watching Emerald more closely. Turning a back on a busy baby is never smart.

It’s possible God lets chaos happen in order to get our full attention on a certain problem we haven’t been aware of. It might be his effective way to avoid something worse down the road. In other words, minor chaos now in exchange for absolute bedlam later.

Does that mean we ought to thank God when everything’s falling apart? The problematic but accurate answer is yes.

High enoughToday I’m thankful for flying marbles. It let me know Emerald can reach higher, pull harder, and hurt herself more seriously than I thought she could. And now I know. Our marbles have been relocated to the very top shelf.

“O God…. renew a right spirit within me.” (Psalm 51:10)

Sense or Non-sense?

Nate's album of carsBlogging yesterday about Nate’s photo album full of car pictures got me thinking. In every family a car purchase is a big deal. Sometimes the biggest deal isn’t a fancy new car but a “junker,” significant because it’s someone’s first car, bought with their own money as a teenager. Other times the big deal is a first new-not-used car, or someone’s first sports car.

As I thumbed through the album pages yesterday, my vote for biggest-deal cars went to the ones that had been in accidents. Though cars were damaged, drivers and passengers weren’t.

Nelson was safe.Like the time Nelson was driving on a country road as a college senior, studying a map. When he looked up, it was too late to avoid hitting a phone truck parked half-on and half-off the road. The car was totaled, but the driver’s seat and driver were intact.

Or the time Hans fell asleep behind the wheel driving home for a family reunion, rolling his car 3 times before landing upsidedown. A totaled car but not a scratch on Hans.

Or a potentially fatal accident when a car turned in front of Linnea, causing her to crash head-on into a concrete bridge support.

Birgitta was safe.Or the time Birgitta’s hood flew up against her windshield, blinding her view at 70 mph. It could have been fatal, but she was unharmed.

Or Klaus, unable to stop when a lady turned in front of him, crashing into her. Another totaled vehicle.

Or the time Lars was driving and his wheel dipped into a ditch, coming to an abrupt stop on a concrete pipe in the ground. The rounded imprint of his head and his passenger’s (Nelson) remained in the shattered windshield.

It’s those pictures that mean the most, difficult as it is to look at them. None of us can prepare for accidents which are, by definition, unexpected. But can we be ready in the sense of knowing what we’ll do in the aftermath?

Any one of our family accidents could have turned out differently, and there’s no guarantee they won’t in the future. I lost a close cousin to a car crash when she was 17 and a precious niece at 23. The question is, how do we cope with such seemingly random, unfair tragedies?

News reports are full of them every day, and none of us are exempt from accidents and the damage and loss they cause. (Ecclesiastes 9:12) When they happen, the first thing we want to do is make sense of the circumstances, and  that’s often impossible. But there is one rational thing we can do, and that’s run to God. He calms and comforts whether things make sense or not. Maybe especially when they don’t.

So as I closed the album, hoping no further accidents will ever occur, if they do, I know exactly what to do.

Ugh“I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.” (2 Corinthians 12:10, The Message)

Going to War

This morning I met with my prayer group in our weekly effort to bring 200+ requests to God for his answers. Because we make an effort get the job done before morning moves into afternoon, we try to be efficient, though never sacrificing Spirit-led diversions from having their way.

We categorize according to illnesses, revival, church concerns, career problems, missions, community services, and more. We also pray for our government and for the military, including any in our congregation on active duty.

Soldiers in combat

This morning as one of the ladies prayed about war zones and soldiers, my thoughts wandered to that familiar old aphorism, “There are no atheists in foxholes.” It originated in the 1940’s and implies that everyone who finds themselves under extreme stress will seek the help of a higher power.

Army rucksacks used to include pocket New Testaments as an encouragement toward that higher power, but in recent years they’ve been eliminated. Maybe there just isn’t room anymore, with everything else a soldier has to carry:

  • rifleMilitary rucksack
  • ammo
  • food rations
  • water canteens
  • batteries
  • body armor
  • helmet
  • first aid kit
  • grenades
  • notebook & pen
  • maps
  • 2-way radio
  • compass
  • GPS
  • flak jacket
  • gloves
  • ear plugs
  • goggles
  • weapon cleaning kit
  • book of local language

And that’s just the first 20 items. Depending on the mission, there might be many more. The goal is to protect our fighting men and women as thoroughly as possible, although the weight of these supplies often reaches 100 pounds.

But what if a soldier said, “All that stuff just weighs me down, so my plan is to leave it behind when I go into battle. I’ll be able to run faster and stay energized longer without that extra 100 pounds, which is a more sensible way to fight.”

We’d all argue against that, but in life’s spiritual battles, for those of us waging war against temptations every day, we often do exactly that. Ephesians 6 details a supply list that offers sure protection:

  • belt of truth
  • body armor of God’s righteousness
  • shoes prepared with the gospel of peace
  • shield of faith
  • helmet of salvation
  • sword of the Spirit
  • the Word of God

When we lose a battle, we should immediately take inventory of our fighting gear. Did we forget to bring (or purposely leave behind) our protective equipment?

Camoflage New Testament

It’s a shame New Testaments have been eliminated from standard military supply, though the 20+ items soldiers do carry are sure to help them. But for those of us not currently in the military, it’s that same New Testament that contains the only effective supply list that will help us conquer our enemies day-to-day.

And it weighs far less than 100 pounds.

“We are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.” (Ephesians 6:12)