Nelson’s journal 3/13/22    

Nelson isn’t feeling like his regular self these days, and symptoms of “sickness,” as he calls it, seem to be increasing. The only thing to do is start visiting doctors to find out what’s wrong.

Baby is 11 days overdue, but that doesn’t seem worrisome.

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March 13, 2022    

I’ve had this sickness for the past couple weeks, and it doesn’t get any better. I stopped exercising altogether because I’m trying to listen to my body so it gets better. Not like anything I’ve had before. Just lingers on, lots of symptoms, just generally feel “sick.” Lots of aches and pains.

Maybe I have this sickness so I’ll spend more time here at the house with Mom and Annso, instead of working. It seems to be fairly spiritual. I did a bunch of blood work yesterday so we’ll see what comes back from the doc about that.

Anyway, I’m preaching next Sunday, and it’s probably going to be one of the last times. We will probably turn the church over to the people who own the property, which means we won’t even be going there anymore—not a partial thing, but nothing.

For some reason, I don’t have a problem with it and actually feel quite relieved, like there is a burden off my shoulders. I think Mom and Annso hold onto it more than I do. It’s been 6 years.

Mom is here for the birth of our little baby boy, but he’s taking his sweet time. Almost 2 weeks overdue. People ask constantly, but all we can tell them is “nothing yet.” It’s like we are celebrities and people are all over us about the details of our lives. But those same people are the ones who’ve given us so many gifts that we have no need whatsoever.

We haven’t spent anything at all on our baby except the fee for the midwife. Funny, the birth would have been free if we went to the hospital because we have the insurance that covers it. But we are doing it this way at home because we want it to be more peaceful. I’ve never been through it, but I’ll make an assessment once we’re on the other side of it.

Doors open and close. I was thinking I would work for Tim, the electrician, and preach at the church as a bi-vocational pastor, but now I’m leaning the other way and just going with the thing God seems to keep calling me back to, a full time YWAMer. Annso and I like “YWAM Days” and in that calling, you don’t have the “Sunday Scaries” as Klaus [brother] called them last night, where people dread going back to work for the week. I guess I should go with the thing I’ve always gone with. A job is always there and always waiting. I learned that with Tim. If you work hard, you have nothing to worry about. It will always be waiting for you.

Thank you Lord for the life we have here and for the baby boy who is about to be born. I pray against fear and sickness that tries to invade our lives constantly. Thank you for Mom being here and how we were able to hang out yesterday and shop and talk about stuff. I pray we can make the most of the 2 weeks we have here together.

I pray for the service this morning, that we can meet with you, praise you, worship you, and do the best we can at the end of the Little Red Church, as we know it, as it changes hands.

What is next? I pray for Hans [brother] as he is trying to make the decision about being a pastor or not. I pray you would show me what to do for him if there is anything you would like me to do in the way of encouragement or anything. Please direct our steps today. Amen.

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“Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the Lord that will stand.” (Proverbs 19:21)