Bottoming Out

My first official job was as a waitress in a small California diner, and I tested the cook’s patience as she tried to teach me serving skills. One day I was responsible for restaurant chaos as a result of not having listened carefully about the coffee machine.

In those days, no homeowner had a coffee maker in her kitchen, and I had no idea how they worked. Our restaurant had a big one with 3 burners and 3 pots, a complicated contraption at best.

One morning during a breakfast shift, I made a fresh pot of coffee for the men lined up at the counter enjoying ham and eggs. When I grabbed the pot and swung it around for coffee refills, the bottom fell out of the glass pot, along with all the scalding coffee. Those seated on the stools leaped up in unison as if they’d been choreographed to do so, shouting their complaints.

The cook charged in from the kitchen, immediately sizing up the situation. The coffee pot, half in my hand and half in glass shards on the floor, had been sitting empty on a hot burner. As the fresh coffee dripped into it, nothing appeared different, but the pot had cracked, and its contents were doomed.

A glass carafe isn’t the only thing subject to its bottom falling out. The proverbial bottom can fall out of life, too. When everything breaks apart we ask, “How did we get burned so badly?” Usually it has something to do with being on a “hot seat” too long.

Although the coffee pot incident was completely my fault, we’re not always the ones responsible when the bottom falls out of life. It might be a convergence of unusual circumstances or the result of an attack by someone else. It might even be God, who sometimes lets us fall to a place of brokenness on purpose. (When he does, though, it’s only after he’s tried to get our attention in gentler ways first.)

If we reach out to him for help when we’re at the bottom, the result is a lifting-up with better results than if we’d never fallen at all. To stay in a hot spot that’s burning us with increasing intensity does more damage than if we break apart, for one reason: it’s God who is willing to put us back together.

That restaurant mistake showed me heat can cause disaster. But in the 46 years since learning that lesson, I’ve been careful not to put glass on a hot burner.

When the bottom falls out and God picks up our broken pieces, the fresh beginning he offers comes with increased smarts, and we usually do things differently after that. Although we may end up with a burn scar, it’s always worth it.

“The sacrifice you desire is a broken spirit. You will not reject a broken and repentant heart, O God.” (Psalm 51:17)

Size doesn’t matter.

Internet advertising has become big business, despite the short-lived nature of the tiny on-screen ads. If I open my email, there on the right is a mini-box promoting a subject such as financial investments, college degrees, or dating. When I click to open one of my email messages, that ad disappears and another takes its place. If I click the “back” button, a different ad appears. I can click, click, click, and every single time the ad-box will refill with as many new ads.

If I never read them, which I don’t, advertising money has been wasted. However, if you asked me to recite what the ads were for, I could probably list their contents, so maybe I’ve been looking after all.

Some of the little ads are downright captivating with their bright colors and wild animation, and almost all make demands for my attention. Ad creators are hoping I’ll move my mouse in their direction for one curious click, which will put them one step closer to making money on their investment.

Every company has an advertising department to which a sizable portion of their budget is allocated. Artists, animators, techs, marketers, publicists, and others are all on the payroll, practicing the sophisticated science of persuasion.

On the matter of persuasion but on a different topic, how much effort/time/creativity/money do I allocate to advertising my Christian faith? Do I dedicate myself to that pursuit as enthusiastically as business dedicates itself to advertising its product or service?

The weightier question is, if not, why not?

Maybe I tell myself I’m just one person among millions, so my “ad” would be too small to make any difference. Or maybe I hide behind the excuse that my miniature statement of faith couldn’t possibly catch anyone’s attention because most people already have too much on their minds. In the past I’ve even abdicated my responsibility to speak up on spiritual matters because I knew I didn’t have the gift of evangelism.

Now I see how even brief encounters can be opportunities to share the importance of my relationship with God. The size of it doesn’t matter, because when I speak up for him, he moves in and puts supernatural power behind it in whatever way he chooses. It’s his touch, then, that gives my tiny “ads” a possible impact.

This internet space is, in a way, a small “ad” for him, and I’m always hoping he’ll bring his larger-than-life influence into its few words. And thankfully, even as life click-click-clicks along, the ad message of the Gospel always stays the same.

“Let your light shine before others.” (Matthew 5:16)

 

P&Q

When my younger brother was 7 years old, he was helping Mom wrap Christmas gifts when he said, “What can I get for Dad?”

“What he really wants,” Mom said, “is a little peace and quiet. Too bad you can’t give him some of that,” and she laughed.

But on Christmas morning, that’s what Tommy gave, and Dad opened a basketball-sized square box with a scrap of paper in the bottom that said, “In this box is peace and quiet.” It was a huge hit.

Most of us need a bit of P&Q every so often and suffer if we don’t get it. I marveled at my kids when they were in high school, simultaneously managing homework, music, snacking, and instant messaging. Maybe I’m using old age as an excuse, but lately I’m with Dad, appreciating peace and quiet.

Sometimes I worry about the years ahead. What about the physical chaos of old age that seems to keep peace and quiet at bay? Will I be able to think straight, much less produce anything during those years?

When I was a child of about 10, I had a dress made from fabric imprinted with artwork by a woman affectionately known as Grandma Moses. This hard-working farm wife bore 10 children and then began a painting career in her late 70’s, doing her best work in her 90’s. (Recently one of her paintings sold for $1.2 million.) She died at 101. When I worry about losing my powers of concentration, I think of her and hope I can do as well. Scripture tells me I can.

Anna, a temple prophetess, had a thriving ministry of prayer and fasting well into her 90’s (Luke 2), and Sarah, Abraham’s wife, delivered a baby and breastfed him at 91 (Genesis 21). Joshua and Caleb of Old Testament fame were as strong and energetic in their 80’s as in their 30’s (Joshua 14), and Moses retained good vision and high energy up until he died at 120 (Deuteronomy 34). I wonder if any of them said, “Lord, I can’t continue on without an environment of peace and quiet.”

These examples and others are included in the Bible for an important reason: to remind us that God is the one who empowers us to complete whatever task he assigns us to do, regardless of age or of having the perfect atmosphere of peace and quiet. When we’re physically spent or overwhelmed by a must-do job, we’re instructed to “trust in the Lord” for the energy we need (Isaiah 40).

But what about a little peace and quiet along the way? Would that be too much to ask? The truth is, God is more interested in the P&Q of our inner lives than what’s going on around us. Even when turmoil is swirling, he can provide peaceful quietness in the midst of it (at any age) and enough oomph to do whatever needs doing.  According to the Bible, old-age success is sure to come if we do one thing first: obey God. And he says if we do that, then we’ll “flourish in old age, remaining vital and green.” (Psalm 92)

“My flesh and my heart may fail; But God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” (Psalm 73:26)