There are easy days and there are hard days, but the main thing I’ve learned over and over is that you won’t know in advance what type of day you’ll get. I’ve had days that start off good and by the end, I’m at the ICU. Not easy but reality for me lately.

So many times I’ve made plans to be somewhere or meet with someone only to cancel them and end up on the sidelines in some way. This is a reality that hasn’t been easy for me to adjust to. BUT, it’s one of the teachings I’ve read in the Bible all my life, 

“Don’t worry about tomorrow, today has enough trouble of its own.” Ain’t that the truth? It’s one thing to read it. 

It’s quite another to realize it’s actual value and live it out in real life. 

There are things on our schedule like our house closing October 26. We go to church small group Thursday nights and attend a service on Sunday morning. We enjoy those things and want them to happen, but if they turn out to be impossible, then so be it. 

Right now, Annso and Will are in Germany. She had planned on going in January depending on my health but her Grandmother had a resurgence of cancer so Annso, her Mom, and little Will went over on Monday. For me, a trip like that would have been fun, but probably too risky. I’ve been doing better than ever, so the timing is good for her to be gone and I was able to get my Mom to come up from Michigan and hang out with “her oldest” in the meantime. My Mom (Margaret) on the right and Annso’s (Astrid) on the left.

As it turns out, Annso’s grandmother passed away just before they arrived in Germany so they were not able to introduce her to her one and only great-grandchild.

It’s a bummer. That’s what her family has said over and over,

“Oh how she would have loved to meet little Will.” 

Be that as it may, it’s still good they made it, can be a comfort in this time of grief and loss, and are introducing the baby to everyone else. 

Having a little guy around is such a blessing because he doesn’t understand cancer or death and keeps a lighter vibe going for us here in Rochester and for the bereaved over in Germany.

We wonder about God’s timing and lots of the time, it’s not what I would choose, but we work with what we get.

I often wonder why I got cancer at almost the exact moment I had my first and only son. Why in the world did those to major life events happen at the exact same time? Not what I would have chosen, but the way it went.

It helps to know we are not as “in control” as we would like to be and that’s freeing in a way. If my health went downhill, Annso would be on a flight back in a day, but for now, I’m enjoying some time with my Mom while Annso enjoys her family and shows off our new “charge”. 

We pray for favor and guidance but know that the timing is ultimately in God’s hands. 

27 “Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? 

34 …Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Matthew 6:27, 34