When we can’t understand…

Having young children among us is always a plus. No matter what the stresses of the day, just when we need a lift, they come out with something interesting.

Neighbor's swing

For example, last week 4 year old Skylar and I walked across the road to take a break on our neighbor’s bench swing. (Thank you, Klints.) We were enjoying a conversation about whether or not the wet wood would dampen our clothes when she switched the subject. Pointing to a tall pine in our line of vision she said, “Wow, Grandma Midgee, look at that big tree!”

“Isn’t it pretty?” I said. “It’s still green in wintertime after all the other trees have lost their green leaves. It’s called an evergreen.”

When she didn’t respond I looked over. She was gazing up at the 50’ tree with a knitted brow, thinking deeply, and I knew something interesting was about to come out.

Tall evergreen

Finally she said, “Evergreen? What about ever-red or ever-purple? How ‘bout having some of those?”

Good question. Unless I wanted to go into the wonders of photosynthesis, I didn’t have a ready answer. So I just said, “That would be beautiful, Skylar. What a good idea!”

And that’s the thing about children. They’re always thinking, trying to understand the many mysteries in their world. As we adults grow older, we learn that there are scores of mysteries we’ll never understand. Maybe that’s why we subconsciously stop trying. When we get around children, though, their curiosity becomes contagious, and we begin again to wonder why things are the way they are.

To me the biggest mystery is why God continues to have any interest in us at all. Scripture makes it clear we were a tremendous disappointment to him when we chose sin over righteousness, and we continue to do it again and again, virtually daily. But for some reason unknown to us, he pursues us relentlessly, calling to us through circumstances, through the Bible, and through other people.

Why does he want us when we continually fall short of his ideal? The answer he gives when we ask is, “Because I love you.” That kind of love is a mystery to us, since we give or withhold love based mostly on performance.

In answer to that, he says, “Remember, I’m not you.”

So the only way to satisfactorily live with such a profound mystery is to simply accept that it’s true, and bask in that amazing love. One important thing to remember, though, is that doubting this divine love will only cause us trouble. Accepting it despite not understanding it is clearly the best choice.

Skylar

The only other thing we might do is ask a child. It could be that Skylar has an idea about why God continues to love us. In the mean time, as I’m pondering this great mystery on my walks through the woods, I’m going to keep my eyes peeled for some ever-reds and ever-purples.

“Show us your unfailing love, O Lord.” (Psalm 85:7)

No-el

Every family has its special holiday traditions and customs, from favorite foods to must-do celebrations. Christmas trees are adorned with unique homemade ornaments, scruffy from years of use, and the same well-worn household decorations come out year after year. Lifted out of tattered storage boxes, they bring a fresh thrill each December.

When it comes time to put away our family’s Christmas things, I always leave two items for LIFO (last-in, first-out): my giant canister of holiday cd’s, and the tin of holiday necklaces, earrings, and broaches. After December 1st, it’s only Christmas music at our house, and it’s holiday “jewelry” every day.

When the kids were little, they argued over who would wear which of the pins and trinkets in the jewelry tin, some of them crudely made by pudgy fingers in kindergarten. But for years now, my grown children haven’t cared to wear them, so I’ve been the only one dipping into the tin. That is until this year. Suddenly my old Christmas baubles have taken on new life in the hands of my grands.

Skylar in particular has been fascinated with their “beauty,” and Nicholas has been concerned over the “pokey’s” on the broaches, wanting each one safely clasped. Last Sunday I pleased them all by wearing the biggest broach, a red ceramic “Noel” pin 5” long that included a chunky poinsettia.

But while bending down to hug a child after church, I heard a crack and realized I’d pressed him up against the broach. “Ouch!” he said, and pulled away, looking up at me.

“Oh my!” I said. “I think I hugged you into my pin!”

We rubbed his head, and he skipped off to get a Christmas cookie. That night when I went to remove the broach and put it away, I realized the crack I’d heard hadn’t been a child’s head at all but the snapping of the broach in half. When I took it off, it simply said, “No” instead of “Noel.” Eventually I went back to church to hunt for the “el” but never found it.

The word “noel” has become synonymous with Christmas, but originally it meant birth or day of birth. That’s where our Christmas carol The First Noel got its story-line: “Noel, noel, born is the King of Israel.”

But what about the “el?” It’s definition  is a good one: the name of God as strength, might, power, sovereignty. “El” is used hundreds of time in Scripture, often coupled with more descriptive words that detail God’s character: El Emet (God of truth), El Olam (everlasting God), El De’ot (God of knowledge), El Hakkavod (God of glory), and many more.

And on Sunday I lost my “EL!”

But what a glorious miracle to know that throughout my lifetime, my real EL cannot be lost, because I will never say NO to EL Chaiyai, “The God of my life.”

“By day the Lord commands his steadfast love, and at night his song is with me, a prayer to the God of my life (El Chaiyai)” (Psalm 42:8)